Wrestling Consciousness
by Claudine
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vice
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all i want
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bleeding hearts
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in the ruins
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fallen angel
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clouds
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don't make a sound
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you
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the battle rages on
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stay
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play me
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come on over
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hallelujah
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i will learn
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about
this album has been a journey for me. one that stemmed from a lifetime of alone knowing, i might have what it takes, but never having anyone else to validate those feelings, and take my gifts seriously....once that voice resonated with me, i was able to gain the strength and courage to share my words, my heart, my gift......my music.
the title of the album reflects my struggle to recognize that i wanted and had more to give than i was opening my eyes to. for a very long time, i was unconscious to the possibilities beyond the limitations i had given myself.
i was extremely fortunate to work with a team of musicians and producers that enabled me to bring my songs to life, and i have felt no better experience.
my hope is that you will take away with you a message of strength, will, and that no matter what happens you are not alone. somehow we are all connected, and there is no better way to experience that connection than through the artistic expression of music!
~cd
the title of the album reflects my struggle to recognize that i wanted and had more to give than i was opening my eyes to. for a very long time, i was unconscious to the possibilities beyond the limitations i had given myself.
i was extremely fortunate to work with a team of musicians and producers that enabled me to bring my songs to life, and i have felt no better experience.
my hope is that you will take away with you a message of strength, will, and that no matter what happens you are not alone. somehow we are all connected, and there is no better way to experience that connection than through the artistic expression of music!
~cd
credits
released 27 September 2011
claudine; writer/lead & bg vox
isaac bolivar; guitar
jason wall; drums
mark kenoly; bass
jallah keys; piano
claudine; writer/lead & bg vox
isaac bolivar; guitar
jason wall; drums
mark kenoly; bass
jallah keys; piano
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- Track Name: vice
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As the dust begins to settle
I’m wondering how
I’m wondering why
Refuse to take your foot off the petal
Keep pushing on
It’s what you wanted all along
The cracks in the walls they’re screaming
They know its coming’ soon
Watching in slow motion
As the darkness takes hold of you
Check your ego at the door
Nobody gives a damn anymore
Use ‘em up
Are you through
Wink at your reflection
You beg you plead, you implore
Head in your hands, knees to the floor
Show ‘em up
You’re long overdue
Another dose of rejection
Choose your vice to make it better
They don’t understand
It’s all part of the plan
Your life plays out to the letter
You won’t succumb
You think you’re the only one
The cracks in the walls they’re screaming
They know it’s comin’ soon
Watching in slow motion
As the darkness takes hold of you
Check your ego at the door
Nobody gives a damn anymore
Use ‘em up
Are you through
Wink at your reflection
You beg you plead, you implore
Head in your hands, knees to the floor
Show ‘em up
You’re long overdue
Another dose of rejection
Keep runnin
Keep movin
Make your escape
Keep hidin’
denyin
there’s only one way
(Repeat Chorus) - Track Name: all i want
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You threw me from my path
Now there’s just no looking back
You opened up my eyes
And made me start to realize
It’s like a new found innocence
For so long being resistant
Now it seems all too clear
I won’t be paralyzed by my fear
All I want
All I need
And my heart it bleeds
For a moment in time
To feel what it’s like
All I want
All I need
Is some time for me
Just to think, just to know
Feel myself let go
I was sheltered for so long
Stopped believing in the song
And then you walked into my life
And somehow made it all seem right
For so long I could not conceive
Now for the first time I believe
From within ill let it out
No longer will I doubt
All I want
All I need
And my heart it bleeds
For a moment in time
To feel what it’s like
All I want
All I need
Is some time for me
Just to think, just to know
Feel myself let go
Excuses are made so easily
It’s never too late, you made me see
In you, my love, my strength, my friend
You made me believe in myself again
Now there’s nothing to hold me down
Underneath my feet im on solid ground
No longer do I need to hide
Now that I’ve got you by my side
(chorus)
Follow your heart
Never let go
Reach for your dreams
Keep fighting for what you know
Follow your heart
Don’t listen when they tell you “no”
Believe in what you feel
Find a way to make it real
(repeat chorus) - Track Name: bleeding hearts
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the sincerity you wear,
is waning
words, once so powerful,
now, have become draining
a light that resonated,
now falls dim
what a fool I was
for letting you in........
bleeding hearts
know no destination
torn apart
by hope and admiration
searching to land
a place to take hold
offering a hand
as the devil takes your soul
paint on the smile, choose the mood
for the day
spend a while, just enough time
to get your way
not so complicated
just keep in all in check
so much you underestimated
do you have any regrets
bleeding hearts
know no destination
torn apart
by hope and admiration
searching to land
a place to take hold
offering a hand
as the devil takes your soul
seems so easy
didn’t mean it
smoke and mirrors, hidden doors
oh how i feel it
taught me to need it
descending, down onto the floor
bleeding hearts
know no destination
pulled apart
by hope and admiration
searching to land
a place to take hold
offering a hand
as the devil takes your soul
(repeat 1st verse) - Track Name: in the ruins
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She lies there waiting
Hoping it will be the last time
She’s anticipating
Of what will be on his twisted mind
She goes to scream
And he covers up her mouth
Never to dream
Of what it’s supposed to be about
She tries to say
Its not okay
He’s not listening anyway
Cut me loose
She’s gonna make her move
No longer taking this from you
Get away
No matter what it takes
There’s nothing left here for you to break
Runnin from this hell
Knowing it all too well
In the ruins a shell of herself
She trembles in the sickness
The pain it runs too deep
There’s no room for forgiveness
The hate is all she has to keep
She carries it with her
Endlessly haunting her mind
Perpetually injured
He’s there with her every time
She tried to say
Its not okay
He never listened anyway
Cut me loose
She’s finally made her move
No longer taking this from you
Get away
No matter what it takes
There’s nothing left here for you to break
Runnin from this hell
Knowing it all too well
In the ruins a shell of herself
Stole the innocence that used to dwell
Replaced with guilt and shame, and the curse not to tell
Hiding behind the smile she tries so hard to sell
Embracing the emptiness she’s come to know so well
(Background vocal; Can anyone hear me, Can anyone see, deliver me from this place. Take away this endless pain, in my mind i need to erase. Can anyone hear me, can anyone see. Damaged goods is all that remains. Left here in this empty shell....................never to be the same)
She tried to say
It’s not okay
He never listened anyway
Cut me loose
She’s finally made her move
No longer taking this from you
Get away
No matter what it takes
There’s nothing left here for you to break
Runnin from this hell
Knowing it all too well
In the ruins a shell of herself - Track Name: fallen angel
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They say the truth can set you free
And all its brought is pain to me
Trusted your eyes
Believed all your lies
I bought your sincerity
Sacrificed integrity
Stood by your side
A fool to take this ride
Blinded to the truth
Always defending you
Just to be adored
Always needing one more
Fallen angel
Fell so far from grace
My fallen angel
Find rescue from this place
I held you so high
I thought that you could fly
And with your broken wing
You destroyed everything
One more lie to hide the last
Wild fire, and spreading fast
Try to make amends
The unraveling begins
Forgiveness is earned
By showing lessons learned
The heart can beat again
If allowed the time to mend
Fallen angel
Fell so far from grace
My fallen angel
Find rescue from this place
Oooh, ohhh………oh no not you
Oooh, ohhh………tell me it’s not true
My fallen angel
Fell so far from grace
My fallen angel
Find rescue from this place
(repeat chorus) - Track Name: if i ran to you
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runnin down this open road
wreckless
searchin to find a glimpse of me
helpless
crashin into you
senseless
open up the door
powerless
now I know what im feeling
and I know ive gotta long way to go
and I know it’s too revealing
and I know ive gotta make it on my own
but if I ran to you
would you hold me
and if I ran to you
would you tell me what you feel
if I ran to you
could you heal me
if I ran to you
would you make it alright
what I need is a
revelation
a cure for this
contradiction
runnin through my veins
an addiction
the answers lie in you
and I’m listening
now I know what im feeling
and I know I’ve got a lot to learn
and I know it’s too revealing
reaching out for you, tell me which way do I turn
but if I ran to you
would you hold me
and if I ran to you
would you tell me what you feel
if I ran to you
could you heal me
if I ran to you
would you make it alright
got to let it, got to let it, got to let it in
feel my heart’ feel my heart, beating
got to let it, got to let it, got to let it in
feel my heart’ feel my heart, beating
repeat chorus - Track Name: clouds
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- Track Name: don't make a sound
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How was she to know
Makin it fine, doin it on her own
How was she to know
Solemnly swore, she’d never need anyone
As she looked around
Her t’s crossed, i’s dotted one by one
As she looked around
Livin her life as though it were not her own
Never knowing something else was inside
Blindly turning away easier to hide
Standing before her the key to unlock the door
Her walls crumbling, she can’t hide anymore
The violence shakes her, to find all that’s buried here
The strength of one voice that brings her far to near
What can she do now, with all that she has found
Keep it in, don’t make a sound
She tries not to fall
The pain of knowing there’s no one to catch her
She tries not to fall
Shattered dreams of ever after
She won’t let it show
She hopes that maybe in time it’ll fade away
She won’t let it show
How can she feel, all that she’s locked away
Never knowing something else was inside
Blindly turning away easier to hide
Standing before her the key to unlock the door
Her walls crumbling, she can’t hide anymore
The violence shakes her, to find all that’s buried here
The strength of one voice that brings her far to near
What can she do now, with all that she has found
Keep it in, don’t make a sound
Don’t make a sound
Don’t make a sound
Don’t make a sound
shhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Her hands are tied
Still searching for her silver lining
Her hands are tied
Living her life without even trying
She knows the way
Never to find all she’s come to know
She knows the way
The only choice she has is letting go
Never knowing something else was inside
Blindly turning away easier to hide
Standing before her the key to unlock the door
Her walls crumbling, she can’t hide anymore
The violence grips her, to find all that’s buried here
The strength of one voice that brings her far to near
What can she do now, with all that she has found
Keep it in, don’t make a sound
Don’t make a sound - Track Name: you
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All the colors seem brighter now
Somehow the music Is sweeter, and how
Wasn’t clear, but now the writing’s on the wall
Like I’ve been waitin’ here for you
To catch my fall
You, believe me
You, you see me
You, you’re makin’ me
Take a chance on everything
You, you touch me
You, you love me
You, you’re makin’ me
Search to find what lies beneath
A resemblance to maybe what could have been
Bittersweet to know you’re here till’ the end
Simply impossible to let you go
I’m holding back, there’s so much more
That you should know
You, believe me
You, you see me
You, you’re makin’ me
Take a chance on everything
You, you touch me
You, you love me
You, you’re makin’ me
Search to find what lies beneath
You….You
You penetrate me
There’s no escaping
You……
Time keeps passing by, but nothing’s changed
Pushing back, break from these chains
Standing here, I find you all around
And then your voice calls out to me
And I hit the ground
(Repeat Chorus) - Track Name: the battle rages on
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are you ready for this game
step right up and try to solve the riddle
do you hunger to ride this train
hold on tight, it’s gonna hurt a little
oh its such a shame
to watch it all fall to pieces
it’s right before you, just in reach
if you only just believe
let it out, hold it in
either way you cannot win
you’re too young, you’re far too old
who’s the one who’s in control
say it once, say it twice
what are you willing to sacrifice
not enough, now you’ve gone too far
and the battle rages on……
no sense in asking yourself why
everyone’s looking for the answer
how they steal and they connive
spreading like a vicious cancer
oh its such a shame
to watch it all fall to pieces
its right before you, just in reach
if you only just believe
let it out, hold it in
either way you cannot win
you’re too young, you’re far too old
who’s the one who’s in control
say it once, say it twice
what are you willing to sacrifice
not enough, now you’ve gone too far
and the battle rages on……
wide awake, still in a haze
desperate to fill the emptiness
on to one “last” mistake
wrestling with your consciousness
scratching, crawling, keep up the pace
reflections reveal the ugliness
missing the truth in your haste
your own strength becomes your weakness
are you ready for this game
step right up and try to solve the riddle
do you hunger to ride this train
hold on tight….
it’s gonna
hurt
a little - Track Name: stay
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Stay with me
Stay here in my arms
There’s nowhere else to be
Lay right here
For one more moment
Don’t want to let you go
Why do
We have to steal
When we know
That this is real
Forever
It’s not in the cards
Just to hold you
And give you my heart
Why do
We have to steal
When we know just what we feel
I know this was not in the play
Just reach out and ill give you my hand
Look at me
Look into my eyes
You always see right through
Please don’t say a word
Let me remember you
The way you are right now
Why do
We have to steal
When we know
That this is real
Forever
It’s not in the cards
Just to hold you
And give you my heart
Why do
We have to steal
When we know just what we feel
I know this was not in the play
Just reach out and ill give you my hand
For so long I have waited
For this feeling to come along
And there you are like magic, singing to me my song
Loving you is so easy, my heart recognized you instantly
Longing for your presence, I need to feel you close to me
(repeat chorus & 1st verse) - Track Name: play me
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let me be your instrument,
play me....
hear the sweet sound,
when you’re goin’ down.
feel my rhythm,
stay in time
strumming each chord
now we’re moving toward
tune every string
and make me sing
oh sweet harmony
make it real to me
your touch, is so tender,
offer my surrender.
beauty in your refrain,
play it once again.
let me be your instrument,
play me....
hear the sweet sound,
when you’re goin’ down.
the art in your composition
assume any position
i am ready
oh, im ready
i can make you see
we’ve got the melody
don’t leave me standing all alone
when im in your arms, im home
soothe all my frets
your hands playin’ down my neck
hold my body one more time
the feel of you, just blows my mind
moving to our song
right where we belong
just show me what you need
i am here to please
my notes they speak to you
when you hands leave me, I’m through
allow me to accompany
experience the ecstasy
wield my action
much more than an attraction
round and round we go
take it nice and slow
let me be your instrument,
play me....
hear the sweet sound,
when you’re goin’ down.
repeat chorus... - Track Name: come on over
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Come on over
A little bit closer
My bark’s much worse than my bite
Come on baby
Don’t say maybe
Take me home tonight
Cuz…I want you and
You want me
Lets stop pretending its something we dont see
I need you
You need me
Lets get it started, and see how it can be
Say my name
Once again
Close your eyes and feel your way
Tell it to me
All of dreams
Let me take you far away
Cuz…I want you and
You want me
Lets stop pretending its something we dont see
I need you
You need me
Lets get it started, and see how it can be
Ooo, ahhhh………….ooo, ahhh
C’mon baby, don’t say maybe
Ooo, ahhhh………….ooo, ahhh
I know you know, weve got to go
Ooo, ahhhh………….ooo, ahhh
Feel the rhythm, you’re in my system
Ooo, ahhhh………….ooo, ahhh
What’s your desire, let’s take it higher
Ooo, ahhhh………….ooo, ahhh
I want you and
You want me
Lets stop pretending its something we dont see
I need you
You need me
Lets get it started, and see how it can be
You come on like a dream
you’re not what you seem
but I still want to taste
you bring on the smile
so stay for a while
ill loose myself in your embrace
(chorus)
C’c’ cmon’, c’c cmon’…………
I want to know, want you to show
So come inside and take this ride…..
(repeat)
Whisper again in my ear
And im yours my dear
Lets waste no more time
Tear down more than my walls
To you let me crawl
Baby I can make you mine
(repeat chorus) - Track Name: hallelujah
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I heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Baby I have been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
There was a time you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
But remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Maybe there’s a God above
But all I’ve ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
It’s not a cry you can hear at night
It’s not somebody who has seen the light
It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah
You say I took the name in vain
I don't even know the name
But if I did, well really, what's it to you?
There's a blaze of light
In every word
It doesn't matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah
I did my best, it wasn't much
I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you
And even though
It all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah
(Repeat Chorus) - Track Name: i will learn
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I will learn to pass you by
Ignore the look in your eyes
I will learn to wear the smile
Sit and laugh a little while
I will learn to stop the pain
Hide the tears that fall like rain
I will learn to just pretend
call you friend
Why is it so hard
To just walk away
You're still pulling at my heart
Askin me to stay
Seems impossible to sever
The ties that bind
Ignorance is bliss, love is blind
I will learn to just not feel
All of you, that seemed so real
I will learn to let it go
though it hurts you know
I will learn to spend my time
Only thinkin’ of you once in a while
I will learn to face the truth
And dream of someone new
Why is it so hard
To just walk away
You're still pulling at my heart
Askin me to stay
Seems impossible to sever
The ties that bind
Ignorance is bliss, love is blind
I will learn
I will learn
Just give me a little time
I will learn
I said I will learn
Just need a little more time
Why is it so hard
To just walk away
You're still pulling at my heart
Askin me to stay
Seems impossible to sever
The ties that bind
Ignorance is bliss, love is blind
Seems impossible to sever
The ties that bind
Ignorance is bliss, love is blind
